i wanna play game but i have to write unsmart blog and im mad

I decided to write about my new neighborhood. Only cause I became really good friends with them. So most of them are 12 and 13 but the youngest is 8. I am the 3rd youngest which makes me feel good. Anyways I don’t know how to spell their names yet but yeah. They’re really funny and nice, they don’t curse or like speak Spanish randomly in front of me, unlike the biker gang. Usually there is 7 or 5 but in total of us we have like 10. We usually stay near someone’s house or go on a walk together and play four square. But yesterday everyone had to go back except for 3 of us. Including me, there are still unfished houses to we went into the scaffolding and it was soooo fun. We saw drinks everywhere and it was scary since it was dark and we only had one flashlight. Then we hopped on the wall that surrounds the neighborhood and we looked at the parking lots for the baseball field and I don’t think there was a game but we could hear people and we just yelled back stupid things like “ARE YOU GAY?!” and etc.. I scratched myself on the wall though since the wall was so tall and my friend had to help me. We took pictures with the flash and we all looked stupid but cool!!!!! Oh yea and we found a random beanbag randomly and my friend planned on stealing it and ran away but came back cause it was dusty lol. We did that for like an hour until it was time for them to go home, I could’ve stayed out longer for a really long time but they had to go home. It was really fun and the wall we sat on wasn’t even done done so while we were on it I asked what they would do if I just fell and died (which is unrealistic cause I wouldn’t die but I probably break my leg) and they told me they would just tell my parents I was eaten by a wolf and they tried to save me but only a finger was left, which is disgusting but yeah. We even have a handshake!!

kay bye

one of them sus

4ever??!?!?!?

Opera just told me that his birthday is on the 5th, and unless he’s gonna do a party. I’m just gonna write him a paragraph of how much I love him. And i’ll do the same on jays bday.

the paragraph

Happy birthday opera! I don’t know how old you are because you never told me but I hope you aren’t like 16 or even if you were, I wouldn’t mind. Anyways, thanks for lightening my day everyday and making me laugh. I’ve only known you for about 4 months which isn’t that long compared to my other friends, but you are the best. And thank you for being there for me, every time I’m emotional, I just think back to what you would say to me. You and Jay are the highlight of my life, and I don’t know what I would do without it. I can’t really give you anything, but I just wanted to tell you how much appreciate you. I hope you have an amazing birthday. ily (as a friend of course because pastel will jump me :clown:)

I hope he doesnt get it wrong

and if he was lying, this would be very awkward

XDXDXDXDX LOLOLMANSIUAUSHDASILUDABSGDUL

i deleted my other blog since my mom is scary

For my birthday, I’m gonna make a virtual online party so celebrate with my online friends. I’m gonna have some of my irl friends come too. I am so excited, because I haven’t been able to play with opera and everyone lately. I really just wanna play with my online friends for my birthday, I’m always so happy with them so I wanna have the greatest birthday which them too. I am still best friends with Jay, I’ve known him for a year now. I kinda wanna do that trend where they re-take a picture from a year ago, but yeah.

I recently watched the most amazing movie ever, Five Feet Apart. It’s about these 2 teens that have a disease where there is too much bacteria in their lungs or something like that. And they fall in love but since they have the same disease, they have to stay five feet apart. It’s so sad I cried, I’ve only cried because of 2 movies, A Whisker Away (stop nam) and Five Feet Apart. It’s literally the best movie ever, the ending is so sad too though.

Every time I’m sad, I just look through my old group chats with opera or group chats with jay. And our dms, I don’t even know why but they always just make me feel so much better even though they aren’t actually talking to me. Recently I lost 2 online friends, which I dont care about them so I didn’t feel sad but I told Opera and I expected something showing that he doesn’t care. But he told me that one day I’ll find new friends and replace them and notice that they were just a waste. I was so happy, and now every time I loose a friend, I remind myself those very words. I also have a picture of the friend group. And now I imagine a picture of my friends and I at my party 🙂

i love them <3 w<3

 

hey guys

I hate jaxen now, I blocked him too, don’t ask. I am currently on a call with Opera and his brother. If u dont know who that is then he is my best friend. Jay and Opera are my new besties for restieszzzzzz. Opera is really really really really funny. His brother is chaotic and also really funny. Almost everyday I call both of them or just Opera. He is so cool and his brother always exposes him. i know his real name now too lol

Opera: so can black people eat? (hes black btw)

Me: yea i guess they can eat anything

Opera: what?.. black people cant eat?

Opera: thats racist!!

Me: *talking about this website while on vc*

Opera: so ur uncle is racist

Me: im sorry?-

Opera’s brother: *literally random things and they’re funny*

and ect

nam might not think its funny but the way they say it make it better

me: singing cause i was listening to music

Opera: *talking*

me: me continuing

opera: oh so ur ugnoring me cause im black?!?!

ive technically also have known jay for a year!

 

 

 

 

me an. plus

Sure i’m mean to some people, but it’s cause I don’t like them obviously. My online friends are super mean, but they’re my friends anyways cause I love them. I am known as the mean person to my mom, I am so mean and rude and bad and annoying and ugly and fat and would rather have any other child. Okay!! I see how she sees me, but I always treat my real friends different. Because if I can’t have a mom, then I just have friends. And this is why I want a therapist, I think it would me feel better. But also, jaxen can be my therapist, hes pretty funny and is nice. Jaxen, Jay and my other online friend Opera. They alwayyyyyyssssssss are so fun to talk to or play. They make everything 100 times better and more fun. Which is why I spend hours on call with them <3. My school friends are boring and basically use me. I buy them snacks and thats the only reason why they sit with me at lunch. School can be such drag, the fifth grade teachers are soooo horrible. Mr mathews is new and really mean and strict, he doesnt let us have freedom but thankfully I got mr Brereton or Mr B. Hes probably the best out of all of the teachers. Hes funny and nice mostly.

Jay and jaxen and basically my besties for restiesss and always the highlight of my day( i might even go to the same high school as him!!!!!!!!)

Call me rude and mean mom #epic. I am not changing myself uwuwuwuuwuwuwuwuwuwuw

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^nah. imagine trying

aight dont look at the time guys

plssssssss send help

mom vs TQ

I win! My mom tried hiding my ipad again then I found it again. I didn’t think mom would hide it there. Message to mom: lol, what are you trying to hide. I’m not tryna make my mom more mad, but can’t she see it’s pointless😭. It’s embarrassing sometimes. “She will never learn her lesson”. What’s the lesson? To not play games? Well I’m gonna decline it, sorry :(. If I can’t make real life friends, online friends are all I have. Im literally by myself at home, TL hates me, TD goes out with her friends. “You can color and draw”, I do. Obviously I get bored, at school I do it a lot. I only have online friends at this point, “oh they’re so bad bc you don’t know who they really are”. Lol, yet there are 6 million or maybe more people on roblox making online friends, and they are so happy.“The internet can destroy you”, i’ve never felt better.

yes

pov; khoi is at home planning on hacking my roblox account and my ipad, and my discord and my life

khoi- when TQ comes, im gonna pull a HUGE PRANK ON HER (because i slammed his head on the sidewalk)

he wont get over it, its like i murdered someone

also khoi- WHEN TQ COMES, WE HAVE TO HIDE FROM HER, AND IGNORE HER

also also khoi khoi- TQ WILL BE SO MAD THAT SHE’LL DO IT AGAIN! ITS GONNA BE SO FUNNY WHEN I POST AN ANGRY VIDEO OF TQ ON YOUTUBE, BECAUSE I ONLY GET 5 VIEWS!

ALSO ALSO ALSO KHOI- IM GONNA KEEP EXPOSING TQ ON ROBLOX UNTIL SHE EXPLODES

And what is my response to this? Simple

I can walk away     OR..

I can punch, kick, or maybe scratch(which usually they come out bleeding, which is kinda over the limit)

Khoi basically just asks to be hurt, which means im walking away. Just to spite him, I can act like Khoi never existed (which is my grand dream and what i want for my birthday). But i am a changed person since my friends have been socializing with me more and making me happier, I am just gonna act like a normal cousin and just act like I was always like this. I don’t care if Khoi is gonna throw hands at me, because I can make it hurt 100000000000000000000000 times more. To Khoi, if you want to hurt me, at least don’t use words. When you hit me, you’re only hurting yourself

Also for my birthday, I want to be reborn. Somewhere else, anywhere else.Maybe i’m lucky with the family I have now, but in my point of view, I want another life. Also to Khoi, you think getting your head slammed is bad(which is lol), I get called out instantly because I’m mean, underaged(only for online people), and I always get called Chinese like its a bad thing(i’m sure you get called Chinese, but someone said the n word to me :D). Most people think I’m mean to everyone, which I am to the people I don’t like, and you are thinking that’s not fair if they are nice to you. Yeah, I don’t really care sadly, I don’t care if it’s not fair, I don’t care if it’s “bad”. Its just how I am, and I don’t see it as mean. Once people call me mean, I say “too bad :D”, it always makes me so happy, because I’m sorry i’m not nice and i’m sorry you care about me.

dont take this that seriously, but yeah.

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