wowww im in 7th grade. and i hate it, and heres why.
1: aubree isnt here. my best friend since 4th grade has left the school. i knew she was moving but her parents made her move early. im sad about it. cause now we’re drifiting apart, i know exactly how this goes. she constantly tells me about her new friends, and im constantly telling her how this school year is different. she seems happier, cause i know shes not the one lonely and having her only friends be rude people who have no manners, judge people constantly for doing nothing and who are boring in general cause they are 7th graders, ew.
2: the rest of the people that moved. me and aubree always talked about who i would talk to if aubree wasnt here, didnt think it’d become reality but it did. and the person i was gonna hang out with instead was apart of me and aubree too. she wasnt ALWAYS, but she was important. her name is too hard to spell but i can say its such a pretty name, we call her jackie. she has wavy long long hair and the prettiest voice. after her best friend dropped her, me and aubree became her best friends. jackie was always quiet, and we liked her either way, cause she listened to me and aubree. she ended up leaving and i never heard from her again.
there was always this group of girls me and aubree would talk to sometimes, they would actually talk to us and about us. not bad stuff, since me and aubree were always together, we were the 6th grade duo, you wouldnt catch us without eachother cause we had every class together and in every class, we’d be together. anyways, about the girls, they were 6th grade’s GIRLS. they usually talk about how someone is, talks, looks, boys, or talk about each other. me and aubree always thought they would be the ones who’d we hang out if one of us left the school. but this year i realized that they really do judge people and it makes me so angry. i was sitting at lunch and saw a substitute teacher sitting alone awkwardly eating lunch. why is he eating in the cafeteria anyways, and then some student far and him talked and when he went over to actually sit with him, my friend emma told me he was weird for it. but all i saw was a lonesome person, and i hate seeing awkward people alone, i pity them. alexa, another one apart of the group of girls, shes nice and all, but careless, her parents didnt teach her manners. along with leyla. i actually hate this girl, i think the only reason why everyone else talks to her is because she shares her homework, other than that i dont know. she constantly tells me to shut up and everybody else, and is a feen for food. the other people are the same mostly. the thing about that group is that they know the only reason why i talk to them is because aubree isnt there, so i feel really weird, eventually ill adapt without aubree.
so many people left and im not about to talk about them all, but everyone who made school exciting left, and its so sad that i walk alone in the hallways, i used to always look back to see if aubree was still following me.
3: people i walk past like were strangers. i could name a good 20 people that i used to talk to last year everyday. but now we have no classes and we dont even greet eachother. i know it happens every year but its a big thing for us because last year, theyre were less teachers so we all had some class together somewhere somehow. i like my classes now with the students i have now, but its also still different with aubree because i never had a second choice after aubree. mando, short of armando. last year me and aubree had a quad for the year too. kristjan, aubree, me and mando. we always sat next to eachother in homeroom and it was so yes. i cant even explain how much i miss kristjan. he was my best friend, and the fact that he still remembers to text me every now and then, it makes me so sad. mando and i have no classes together, and we walk past eachother like we’ve never talked. one day i was walking to my car and saw mando, i ran over and the only thing i asked him was, “do you miss kristjan?” and he smiled and said yea. in the quad, we had our duos too. kristjan and aubree both left us without saying bye to everyone. atleast someone in the school mentions kristjan or aubree everyday, they were pretty important.
NANDO and eddie. nando and mando are different, they were also best friends. our homeroom teacher was so cool that her old students would come visit her every single day, and i mean EVERY SINGLE DAY. just two specific students. eddie and nando. nando is short for fernanado. cause armando and nando sound so similar, me and aubree called him nando. they were really fun and i enjoyed talking to them both. since they were 7th graders back then, i knew they saw me as a child and so i acted like one and they still stayed my friends. i have a lot of pictures with everyone back then. very thankful i took them, cause i look back and think about how fun 6th grade was. now in the hallways, i walk past nando and eddie like strangers, i just know everything about them. nothing much.
4: teachers. not that big on teachers but ms martinez, my 6th grade homeroom, science, and social studies teacher, i love her. and i wish i had another chance to talk to her, i remember the last day of school for me, we had a very short talk because the bell was about to ring, and i just remember telling her im leaving. but in reality she was the one leaving. it was my last day of the school year, it was her last day being there at all. i left early and i just remember giving her my note. and i put my heart into that note, it was short but i hope she knows that i love her. she was funny and ALWAYS let everything slide, my class was the reason she left, but also i know she had a lot of fun being with us. she gave me good grades and literally just was the best teacher, she got yelled at because of me and aubree, yet she never yelled at us. forever my favorite teacher. (everyone says that i know.)
5: im lonely, its hard to explain lonely because i DO have friends and i DO talk to them. but its different cause theyre the ones actually talking, with aubree and jackie, i was open and it was just so nice being with them. i hate school. i hate walking alone and i hate doing things alone. yes its alone even if im with a bunch of my friends. they dont even KNOW ME.
the one thing i like about school. my new school best friend (not aubree replacement)
eva. shes VERY quiet but shes soooo pretty and nice. and she listens to me. so i love her. i only have one class with her but yea. aubree and eva were friends last year too. crazy to think now im the one talking to her. and shes the only person i look up to talking with.