Month: August 2021

Opera just told me that his birthday is on the 5th, and unless he’s gonna do a party. I’m just gonna write him a paragraph of how much I love him. And i’ll do the same on jays bday.

the paragraph

Happy birthday opera! I don’t know how old you are because you never told me but I hope you aren’t like 16 or even if you were, I wouldn’t mind. Anyways, thanks for lightening my day everyday and making me laugh. I’ve only known you for about 4 months which isn’t that long compared to my other friends, but you are the best. And thank you for being there for me, every time I’m emotional, I just think back to what you would say to me. You and Jay are the highlight of my life, and I don’t know what I would do without it. I can’t really give you anything, but I just wanted to tell you how much appreciate you. I hope you have an amazing birthday. ily (as a friend of course because pastel will jump me :clown:)

I hope he doesnt get it wrong

and if he was lying, this would be very awkward

XDXDXDXDX LOLOLMANSIUAUSHDASILUDABSGDUL

For my birthday, I’m gonna make a virtual online party so celebrate with my online friends. I’m gonna have some of my irl friends come too. I am so excited, because I haven’t been able to play with opera and everyone lately. I really just wanna play with my online friends for my birthday, I’m always so happy with them so I wanna have the greatest birthday which them too. I am still best friends with Jay, I’ve known him for a year now. I kinda wanna do that trend where they re-take a picture from a year ago, but yeah.

I recently watched the most amazing movie ever, Five Feet Apart. It’s about these 2 teens that have a disease where there is too much bacteria in their lungs or something like that. And they fall in love but since they have the same disease, they have to stay five feet apart. It’s so sad I cried, I’ve only cried because of 2 movies, A Whisker Away (stop nam) and Five Feet Apart. It’s literally the best movie ever, the ending is so sad too though.

Every time I’m sad, I just look through my old group chats with opera or group chats with jay. And our dms, I don’t even know why but they always just make me feel so much better even though they aren’t actually talking to me. Recently I lost 2 online friends, which I dont care about them so I didn’t feel sad but I told Opera and I expected something showing that he doesn’t care. But he told me that one day I’ll find new friends and replace them and notice that they were just a waste. I was so happy, and now every time I loose a friend, I remind myself those very words. I also have a picture of the friend group. And now I imagine a picture of my friends and I at my party 🙂

i love them <3 w<3

 

I hate jaxen now, I blocked him too, don’t ask. I am currently on a call with Opera and his brother. If u dont know who that is then he is my best friend. Jay and Opera are my new besties for restieszzzzzz. Opera is really really really really funny. His brother is chaotic and also really funny. Almost everyday I call both of them or just Opera. He is so cool and his brother always exposes him. i know his real name now too lol

Opera: so can black people eat? (hes black btw)

Me: yea i guess they can eat anything

Opera: what?.. black people cant eat?

Opera: thats racist!!

Me: *talking about this website while on vc*

Opera: so ur uncle is racist

Me: im sorry?-

Opera’s brother: *literally random things and they’re funny*

and ect

nam might not think its funny but the way they say it make it better

me: singing cause i was listening to music

Opera: *talking*

me: me continuing

opera: oh so ur ugnoring me cause im black?!?!

ive technically also have known jay for a year!

 

 

 

 

Sure i’m mean to some people, but it’s cause I don’t like them obviously. My online friends are super mean, but they’re my friends anyways cause I love them. I am known as the mean person to my mom, I am so mean and rude and bad and annoying and ugly and fat and would rather have any other child. Okay!! I see how she sees me, but I always treat my real friends different. Because if I can’t have a mom, then I just have friends. And this is why I want a therapist, I think it would me feel better. But also, jaxen can be my therapist, hes pretty funny and is nice. Jaxen, Jay and my other online friend Opera. They alwayyyyyyssssssss are so fun to talk to or play. They make everything 100 times better and more fun. Which is why I spend hours on call with them <3. My school friends are boring and basically use me. I buy them snacks and thats the only reason why they sit with me at lunch. School can be such drag, the fifth grade teachers are soooo horrible. Mr mathews is new and really mean and strict, he doesnt let us have freedom but thankfully I got mr Brereton or Mr B. Hes probably the best out of all of the teachers. Hes funny and nice mostly.

Jay and jaxen and basically my besties for restiesss and always the highlight of my day( i might even go to the same high school as him!!!!!!!!)

Call me rude and mean mom #epic. I am not changing myself uwuwuwuuwuwuwuwuwuwuw

ilyonlinefriendssssyouguysarebasicallythekeytomylifeeeeandalwayssssscomfortmeandmakemelaughaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaailygsmasdasdadasdasdasdasdasdasdasd

^nah. imagine trying

aight dont look at the time guys

plssssssss send help