I recently threw Khoi onto the sidewalk, and guess what. I have no regrets, it could’ve been better if he was thrown on the road😕. Anyways, Khoi was being really annoying, calling me a baby and being a fricking hypocrite. He cried cause I threw him on the sidewalk, is that NOT A BABY? He threw a tantrum cause he couldn’t have coke. I told him multiple times, do you wanna get hurt? He was basically asking for it, how much he was hurt after I threw him was how annoying it was. If the parents were in my place, then they would’ve done the same (or something similar). Obviously when Khoi walks into the house and he tells everyone, the looks go to me. And I get ignored, but it’s fine cause then I won’t have to listen to such irritating voices that have no brain and can’t raise their own kids to know what’s right🥰, and I mean it. The ignoring didn’t last long, sadly. I also have them thinking, my friends might be better than my family. They care about my opinions and ask about my days and how I am feeling. While my parents make me living in a nightmare, but they think I’m lucky, “we get to travel while there are other people that haven’t even been out the state”. Well I would rather stay home and be safe, and the awkwardness in different countries would be gone. I am not the reason my parents turned into this, my parents are the reason my life was flipped upside down. Ever since I left SSJ I cry to sleep, because I had never had s school every like that. There was nobody judging me or anything, it was just so natural. Once I moved schools, people started asking me if I’m Chinese. Now, compare me to actual 10 year olds, they are all about tik tok and bring up cringy things, It’s so hard to explain. And It’s so hard to make my mom happy, all she does if make deals and lie, she took SSJ from me and now the church I use to go to every week. I told her, I’ll be so much more successful than her, and will never care to help her. She never did to me, she thinks a B is bad, parents say I could’ve done better. Oh and I did, a B is better than more than half the class got lower. Yes, I compare a lot but it makes sense cause there’re my age. I also don’t think I’m addicted to games, I just don’t have any real friends irl.
Now, my family can yell at me all they want, but it just makes me wanna do this more. And I am hoping I get set up for adoption before my childhood is filled with nightmares of my mom making me stay up until 11 cause I didn’t do HER HOMEWORK. And, yesterday I watched a movie and then I was gonna go to sleep and then my parents wouldn’t make room for me to sleep, so I left angerly and came back to hear my dad yelling at me cause I am ungrateful for what I have. And he told me to shut the hell up. And had to sleep in my room, I was shivering and I couldn’t stop. I secretly grabbed my iPad and listened to music while I slept cause it would be the only way I would calm down.
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