Diary 31: Humiliation

I am pissed. I am so pissed off right now. I will not write any swear words because this is a family friendly website but I wish I could. About an hour ago I was cussing out my friend in the school hallway very loudly. Here is why.

Two of my friends had said that they might go to homecoming. It turns out today that they can’t. But that’s okay, I still have another friend who is going.

Just kidding, he is a liar. I asked him on Wednesday if he filled out the Homecoming form which you need to buy a ticket, to which he said he did. Then comes Friday and he says that he did not buy a ticket, which annoys me a little bit that he is waiting for last minute. I tell him to buy one at lunch. In eighth period he comes and says they are not selling tickets anymore. I am a little stunned by this and I spend the period staring stupefied at nothing and figuring to myself. And so I tell him to seek out the history teacher to ask for a ticket after school, because she is the one in charge of all this stuff.

So after the pep rally, I follow him to the history classroom. There is a small line of girls who were also waiting last minute for a ticket. And there is a limited amount of tickets left, but it is fine because we got there before most people, so all my friend has to do is turn in his Homecoming form and claim his ticket.

But no. Because this rat bastard lied to me. He didn’t fill out the form. He never even picked one up. So he has to leave the line and fill out the form and then the tickets are sold out and I am pissed. Because now I am going to go by myself, and the one person who had assured me that he was going lied to my goddamn face, and had the audacity to try to gaslight me into thinking he had never promised any such thing.

This is the last straw. I guess maybe this insult sounds minor to you, but I’m so mad. You don’t know this kid like I do, and he’s always been doing things that minorly tick me off. He chucks a ball at my genitals and refuses to say sorry, even though it’s a known fact amongst men that any injury to that area is dishonorable and very frowned down upon. I text him a question and he doesn’t answer until the next day, and says the next day that he “fell asleep” and tries to brush it off when I call him out on his behavior. And you know what? This stuff might make it seem like he’s a punk rebel kid who doesn’t play by anyone’s rules. But no, he’s a little insecure Genshin Impact weeaboo that is afraid of social confrontation and taking accountability for being a poor friend.

Again, it probably seems like nothing to you. I’d go elaborate but I have to be somewhere in a few minutes, namely the bowling alley, so I can continue cussing out my friend there. I was swearing pretty loudly in the halls and I hope none of my teachers heard. What pisses me off is that he didn’t even say, “Sorry I lied.” No, he just tries to brush me off and downplay everything, because he is not the one who has to show up to homecoming by himself. Like I said before, it’s not just this, it’s a series of things that get me pissed off.

So I’m going by myself. I feel like Napoleon, after his country turned back on him, after all of Europe has exiled him. He’s literally me.