Persona Releases in A Few Weeks

I was going to write about a debate competition I had in English class but I got bored halfway through and instead I’ll say that there’s this really dumb kid in my photography class. I asked him if he would rather be rich 1000 years in the past or poor 1000 years in the future and he said the future because there was no money in the past. He tried to argue he was right after I called him a moron. We’re taking world history this year too. But that just goes to show that everybody in my school except me is a braindead idiot. Well, I think everyone is stupid, just that some are better at hiding it than others. I told that to the kid in photography class and he said I was acting like Greg Heffley from Diary of a Wimpy Kid because I was acting like I was better than everyone else. And I told him that he has the intelligence of a mole rat because he could not even analyze a character from a children’s book.

I’m also the president of book club though that isn’t very impressive considering only two other people are in the club, presumably because nobody in the school likes reading because they’re all small-brained. One kid dropped out to join yoga club of all things, and the other said they’d show and never did. A girl from my English class asked me about it and said she’d join but I wouldn’t blame her if she left after one meeting because really since there’s no members we just talk for five minutes and head out. Of the two other guys, one is afraid of talking to girls and the other is kind of dumb. Also they picked some really dumb books to read for book club. Another girl asked me about it and wanted to know if manga counted as a book. I told her no and was about to lecture her on what a real book is but I bit my tongue. Some people need a fist to the face sometimes. It’s true. I asked around and even made an announcement to my entire English class but unfortunately everyone is of sub-human intelligence. There’s this web comic I read and this guy in it says that he sometimes feels like he is the only human in the entire world.

As for chess club, that’s just swimming with members. I think the difference is that you don’t need to be smart to play chess. You can’t really call it a club either. It’s more akin to a social gathering. I don’t know most of the people in there and I don’t talk to them. A club to me is like a secret society and we’d all slit our wrists for each other and make a blood pact.

Honestly my debate argument sucked but I still won because my opponents were stupid and tried treating it more like an essay than a speech. In written form what they said was better but none of them had good public speaking skills and it all felt rather impersonal, whereas mine was more gripping and was less likely to make people fall asleep. One of my sworn enemies was on the other team and after his loss he was licking his wounds and crying with his teammates. I decided not to gloat because I think he is annoying to talk to but for sure he’d be rubbing it in my face if he had won. Of course him winning was not a possibility because despite his good grades he is actually stupid. He thinks or maybe just pretends he is smart because of his report card. I told him grades are not an accurate indicator of intelligence but he’d rather not hear it.

Anyhow. There’s this girl and I think about her a lot and I thought I liked her but really she made me irritated more than anything else. She is probably the fakest person I know. Every time I hear her voice it’s as if it’s going through a grinder and her mask is paper thin and upsets me how easily I can see through it and I wonder if everyone else can see it too but pretend not to or are completely oblivious. And I think about these kinds of people a lot and really I’m not different. What upsets me is when people are fakers but are bad at faking. People who force laughs annoy me the most. I said she’s the fakest person I know but now that I think about it I don’t know her at all. When I was making my list of useful people in a zombie apocalypse I gave her a 1/5 in the leadership category because I thought she was too immature and I would not put my life in her hands. Still, who knows. I think some people in my school need to grow up already. I think that except I read somewhere once, I don’t know if it was a book or what, but a kid asked if they had to grow up right then and there, when did they have time to be a kid? Anyway we had to bring in our baby pictures and guess who was who, and the girl was constantly going like, yeah you guys will know which one is me cause I’m the only Asian girl. And in my head I thought, shut up already.

I don’t know if this happens with other races but Asian people really like to mention that they’re Asian, or at least the kids do. To me it comes off as insecurity trying its hardest to pose as security.

In French we’re going over the passe imparfait: j’etais jeune, mais maintenant j’ai quinze ans.

I would read TQ’s blogs but she doesn’t capitalize the start of her sentences. That’s a pet peeve of mine: people not capitalizing. I don’t think it’s that much trouble to occasionally hold down the shift key. And on an iPad or something, just turn on autocorrect. You know, there’s some real sickos out there who intentionally turn off autocorrect so they can write in all lowercase. It’s supposed to make the writer seem laid-back and carefree. If you’re going out of your way to not capitalize, it proves the opposite. I see it so often now it comes off as really cringe-inducing. When I see a Youtube video title that’s in all lowercase it makes me not want to watch it. I grilled a classmate over his choice to turn off autocorrect so he could text in all lowercase.

Well. I finally convinced my friend to shave his neckbeard. And the result was barely noticeable. Some things really can’t be changed. There’s probably a deep message in there. I’m too tired to find it.